My dear blog .. Now .. I wanna wrote again .. there’s so much things I wanna story to you .. but.. I just cant simply wrote here ..
It’s all about S.O.M.E.O.N.E
My dear blog .. Hurting someone that I love is one of the things that I really scared of .. even ‘someone’ that don’t realize that I love ‘someone’ .. but .. when I hurt ‘someone’ with anything, such as my attitude or my word, & watching that ‘someone’ feeling a bad about me, mad at me, hurt by me, I feel worst ..! I am very afraid ‘someone’ is hurt by me .. to me .. ‘someone’ is my priority .. to me .. ‘someone’ is just too special that placed inside my heart .. so, I am very afraid that ‘someone’ would hate me .. even when I am apologizing to ‘someone’ .. & ‘someone’ told me that it’s ok, sometimes, I can feel bad for a few hours .. I feel soo bad .. …………………..better I don’t elaborate too long about this, coz I need to hide much of the details ……………………………………… but .. the point is, I am scared of hurting someone that I really love .. I hate watching ‘someone’’s gloomy face .. I wish I can cheer up so that the face wont be sad anymore .. I am scared that someone would get annoyed by my word or attitude .. when the face looks happy, to me, it is enough .. even I am jealous watching that ‘someone’ is laughing with someone else, not with me, but, I guess that is more than enough .. that’s a relief for me .. but, when ‘someone’ is smiling just bcos of me, that would make me flying at ninth cloud .. ‘someone’’s happiness is my happiness .. but .. ‘someone’ don’t know about it .. & it’s ok for me .. I hope, I am the one who can make ‘someone’’s happy, I guess, I am not the one ..
I am just NOT THE ONE ..
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