he .. cried ..

my dear blog, i wanna keep my favorite part in vampire diaries in inside my blog .. where Damon confess to Elena & telling why she can't know about his confession ..! oh my guard! i understand how this feeling !! seriously i understand .... and here are the scenes :

Damn says :

i love u, Elena ..

& it's bcos i love u ..

i can't be selfish with u ..

y can't u know this ..

i don't deserve u ..

but my brother does ..

seriously ! this is hurt enough for Damon knowing that he is falling for someone that can't be with him.. Talking about the SELFISH word that Damon said, Damon is always selfish .. he killed anyone he wanted .. he have sex with any girl that he wanted .. but, when it comes to someone that he love, he can't be selfish anymore .. love does change him .. when it comes to Elena, he changed .. deep inside his heart, he really wish that Elena would love him just the way he love Elena, how he really wish he can have Elena as his girlfriend .. but, when it comes to the thing that he seriously love, he didn't force her .. he just accept the fact that Elena is not loving him .. Elena just care about him .. soooooooo hurtful !! ....... but .. this is life ! this is love ! what more can i say about it ! .. then .. he kissed Elena's forehead .. sweet !!

aarrhhh !  poor Damon .. i can feel it ..... then .. he compel ( some kind of vampire's ability to persuade people to do what ever they wanted ..) /// he compel Elena to forgot everything that happen that night ..  he just wish that Elena dont have to forget about it .. but, Elena should never know this ! (just like my situation also!! ) ......... so hard .. so hurtful ..

then .. he compelled her .. with a very heavy-hearted ..!!

this is the best part ! tears run down his face !!! (well .. i have to save the best for the last) woooowww!!!! really2 deep hurt there !!!!!  well .. this is just a drama .. real life will always be a real life ..

afraid ..

i made myself busy editing this pic for a few hours .. LMAO!

my dear blog .. a few of my latest entry wasn't about my sadness, or my 'emo' story about my love story .. i am quite relief knowing that i didn't post 'emo' entry .. anyway .. now i am going to post an emo entry .. 

my dear blog, at the beginning of my holiday, it was hard .. well, missing someone sooo much .. but, even at Unimas, it seems like i am hurt by my own feeling .. so , what's the point ?? .. actually, before this, when i thought abut semester break, i was hoped that this holiday will help me to forget my feeling toward someone, at least, reduce my feeling .. now, it is near the end of my semester break .. the question are, can i make it?? can i successfully over my feeling ?? how will the situation ?? are there will be unexpected thing happen to me ?? am i gonna broken into pieces just like i was ??...... i am just afraid that everything will be just like the previous semester .. but .. i look forward to have a brighter life, happier life in Unimas .. hope to be more smarter in my study to have a better result .. ops! BETTER RESULT ?? what is that 'thing'?? i think, i am gonna make an entry about my latest result ... 

my dear blog .. i am afraid to face this coming semester .. =(

sayang awak!! plis don't get hurt!

my dear blog .... i want to introduce you with my lovely PERODUA VIVA !! i wanna name it  Damon Salvatore .. but, i don't know ..... Too long i guess ... but its ok .. I just tinted it last Saturday ! finally my car is almost complete ... about viser, i don't really think that i wanna put it .. rather than viser, hope i can put spoiler 1st !! haha ! do i have enough money ???? well, money is always not gonna enough .. but, i'll try to figure it out how to get it ... hopefully my car will always in a good condition .. i learned a lot from my brothers, friends & some reading in the internet about perodua viva .. hope, i will take care of you just like a hawk watching its baby ..!  love u soooo much ! u looks soooo macho after tinted.. haha! cuz the windows are looking smoking hot when it is dark ! love u! love u! love u! hi hi hi  .. about the picture, the above one, is already being removed the background .... but then, second pic, i don't feel like wanna remove the background .. haha .. u look great babe! hope to change ur rim next ! but .. rim is soooo expensive ......... never mind ... u look great what ever u r ... as long as i have car as transportation university, that is enough ... talking about financial, having a car, it is a bit less stable .. cuz, i have to think about fuel, service .... so ... hope, next coming semester, i will manage my money in the best way .... my lovely perodua viva .. hope to call you Damon, i will always love u!! haha

90210 – the vampire diaries – glee

Dear blog … for about one week, I tried to finish 3 tv series kept inside of my hard disc for more than 3 month .. perhaps those tv series is gonna change to JERUK .. hi hi hi ..

1^st . try to finish 90210

from left : Naomi, Liam, Annie, Adrianna, Navid, Dixon, Silver, Tedd

.... all about teenagers ................................ all the conflict between family, couple , unexpected love .. seriously I understand all those emotion .. haha ..!!! now .. i am waiting for season 3 episode 12 to come out .. but, from what i heard in internet, episode 12 will be broadcast January 2011 .. there are a lot of question that need answer!!!  ...... from the episode 11 that i watched .... Annie is getting well with Liam ! YESSSS!! i am so happy, cuz from the 1st season, i hoped Annie will be couple with liam .. even at that time, there was no sign at all Annie would be in love with Liam & so do Liam .. but ! JUST LIKE IN THE REAL LIFE ! Annie & Liam unexpectedly loving each other ! sooo sweet ! just like one of the facebook page that i like ..

THE FIRST TIME I MET U I DIDNT THINK I WOULD FALL IN LUV WITH YOU,BUT I DID ..

while watching a few scene in this drama, i hope that love is not as hard as what i experienced .. i hope that , even " THE FIRST TIME I MET U I DIDNT THINK I WOULD FALL IN LUV WITH YOU,BUT I DID .. "  ... i hope that 'someone' would feel the same way, just like in this drama .. but .. no! it is not work between me & 'someone' .. =(  .... 

Annie is watching Liam sleeping .. Liam was injured , just come back from Hospital ... aarrrgghh .. so sweet!! she is watching him with full of love & care ... hurmm.. when will i get this kind of relationship??? 

Liam woke up, & they start to talk .... Annie told Liam that, when she heard that Liam is in the hospital, she said, her heart is just like stop for a while, there, she know that, when Liam is Ok, she will be Ok .. Then, Liam said that, He is in love with Annie .. Hurmmmm... sweet & sweet & sweet .... but me???? not at all !

NAvid on the left .. talking with Silver .. telling that, he is UNEXPECTEDLY falling in love with Silver .. & Silver feel the same way .. OH MY GUARD !.. very lucky ... Navid started the conversation telling that he is sorry for making things AWKWArD  between them .. ((seriously, i know this feeling)) .. but then, in this drama, Silver also feel the same way !! sooooo good . but in real life .. when we r falling for someone, UNEXPECTEDLY, that someone not always feel the same way ............. that is real life ... kinda sucks for me .. at some point in my life .. i really hate love !  

i am quite understand with all the emotion that being captured in this drama .. plus,  a few scene where they start to falling in love unexpectedly for the person that they don't expect to love when they 1st meet him or her , i am quite understand there .. but, my life isn't that sweet .. i hope it is sweet just like in this drama .. but, no .. & it's ok .. i try to deal with it carefully .. 

then .. i watch the vampire diaries .. 

from left standing : Elena Gilbert or Katherine, Stefan Salvatore, Jeremy Gilbert, Damon Salvatore. From left, sitting : Bonnie , Caroline ..    

Oh Dear Blog, at 1st time i watched this drama, the first thing that came out in my mind is, typical forbidden love between vampire & human ... kinda heart broken .. but,  i continue watching this drama, because of two things .. 

1. because i like 'superpower' kinda drama or movies ..

2. because of broken hearted kind of story , love everywhere ..

.... but then , after a few episode i watched this drama, it is not just about FORBIDDEN LOVE between vampire & human .. it is more than that .. until now, the vampire diaries is a great drama .. about sibling rivalry, the bonding between the family, all the secret, all the lies, & all the action & power .. there's so much great things that this drama gave to me when watching this .. about one character in this drama .. Damon ..

Damon is just .... always making jokes .. event at a critical time, he still making his jokes .. i like this character .. then , he is one of the character that are BROKEN HEARTED ...... pity him .. everything is just about stefan .. Elena or Katerine, both , fall in love with Stefan .. While Damon just stay strong behind his broken heart .. he is spending his time with elena & stefan because he care about elena .. he love elena .. but , his love is only one-sided love .. poor Damon .. seriously I UNDERSTAND .. most of the time, when he is joking with elena, spending time with elena, he is just sooo happy , but , what to do, Elena will only love Stefan .. 

this is the scene where Damon was seriously, deeply hurt .. at that nite, both, Elena & Katerine telling Damon the exact same phrase .. "it's always gonna be Stefan".. poor Damon .. he is very down .. going back to his home .. I JUST UNDERSTAND THIS HURT FEELING !

 then ... Glee ...

puc, mercedes, rachel, fin,quenn, artie,tina, kurt

my dear blog .. about glee .. i love how they put the story line of this drama .. nothing much i want to say .. just that .. I WISH I CAN JOIN GLEE AND SING WITH THEM !!!! haha ....

this is the last episode for season 1 .. they are singing over the rainbow ..

this is puc and mr.shu singing in front .. leading the song over the rainbow .. someties, i like the character of Puc in this drama cuz 1st of all .. Quenn didn't choose him ... haha

********************well ... that is all the tv series that i tried to finish for about one week ..now, i am trying to catch vampire diaries cuz the is sooo much mystery .. thank to syok.org for serving the link for me to download season 2 of vampire diaries .. but .. link for episode 2 & 5 were broken .. sucks .. i have to get it from torrent .... ......last but not least my dear blog, my love story is real .. love story in drama seems real but, seriously unreal !! when i watch the drama, i might get carried away by the emotion in the drama cuz i am understand, but, i still hope that my love story is better than in those drama! haha ****

r.e.v.e.a.l.........

oh no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my draft for my upcoming post was just LOST!!!!!!! i've created it for a few hours yesterday, but .....! just now ! i wanna edit it a bit, but then .. everything turned out BLANK!! and, to make thing worst, this BLOGSPOT had their 'automatically save', when this post is blank, it will be saved as BLANK ! & BLANK is the result !!!
& ... i've already deleted all my status in my FB except the latest one ... because, the thing that i wanna reveal is, what actually i wrote in my status that most people in FB can't read, as i just choose the person that i think that they are not JUDGE MENTAL or close enough with me, or the people that i love the most, only them can read my status ..... my status sometime sound happy, sometime sound sad, sometime sound wanna die, sound giving up & more .. only special person can read those status .. SO ! THAT ARE WHAT I WANNA REVEAL those HERE!!! but ... everything gone wrong, i can't reveal it anymore, & nothing i can do about it ..  ..


my dear blog, this is sad ~ ~ ~


i guess .. this is meant to be like this .. those status will be just a secrete between me & anyone who can read it .. so .. still .. those status .. are secret .. & i already delete them .. so ...... everything will be just inside of my head & anyone head .. no more inside of internet ....   i feel so rugi .. but .. what to do .. maybe, if anyone read it from my blog, those people will speculate ridiculous conclusion .. perhaps... that is the hikmah behind this .. it's ok .....

still .. this is sad~ ~ 

Song theme for my blog ..

My dear blog .. from what i've told you from previous post, telling that i wanna reveal something that i actually wrote in my status in Facebook, but , not everyone can read it .. cuz i hide those status from MOST people .. so ... this one repulic song .. entitle = secret .. is Special for my upcoming post and my situation everyday which "MY SECRET" is killing me everyday ....