my dear blog..
i am currently at kuching.. i arrived at 3.35 pm just now.. before i went to airport.. i pack a few of my things... my parents also busy.. they prepare things i need to bring to kuching to give to my aunty.. beside that... my mom kept asking about my things.. she afraid that my things would be left at home.. watching at my parents.. they are soooo busy helping me packing my things.. not mine actually... things that what we called souvenir.. looking at them suddenly touched my heart.. i get emotionally.. hi hi hi..tiba2 kan.. how they are really care about me.. how they want me to success in my study.. success in my life.. they support me.. very touching.. emmmmm....... i wish i can pay back all of their hard works rite at this moment.. i wish i can take all of their burden and make those burden disappear.. i wish i can make them happy everyday.. no worries at all.. from the moment they wake up in the morning, until they go to sleep, i wish i can give them comfort .. nothing to make them sad or mad .. anyway.. i love both of you & i want to pay back all your hard works.. harap2 aku sempat.. T.T ...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
14 days to develop a habit
My dear blog,
actually. the title is only for one of my story.. i got a few story for tonite.. Tomorrow , i will go to Kuching.. i guess... my 2nd semester holiday will be ended very very soon.. next saturday... I will check in at unimas residential college.. emm.. just as usual... i just dont really like my holiday to be ended.. i cant be lazy 24/7 anymore.. my teacher once said to me.. behavior of human can be developed within 14 days.. for example.. sleeping time.. if we get use to sleep at 1200 am for 14 days.. after that, our body will automatically want to sleep at 1200 am... HENCE.. i use to sleep at 3 am.. 2 am during this holiday... as a result.. i will have problem to sleep early when i am in unimas.. adehh!! what can i do....
after this.. no more tv... lots of great tv series i will miss after this.... emmm... never mind.. i dont get any payment for those tv series anyway.. hi hi hi.. apart from that... i am excited to go back to kuching.. to live a chaotic life... life that full of laughter, sad, tiring etc/////
my dear blog,
just now... i text my ex.. i just curious to know she is accepted at what university.. she said USM... well .. that's cool.. USM is one of the great university in Malaysia... then.. i was shocked.. she thanks me.. she said.. thank you for still reminding her.. seriously i was shocked... actually i never forget her.. but.. not in the way of love anymore.. i know i am over her already.. (i guess).. i admit, i still have feeling towards her.. but... i guess it is only for 5% more.... not much.... u tell me.. couple for 3 years plus.. who can over that.. me? yup!! ehehee.... i asked her.. she said... she was afraid that i was mad at her.. then i asked her again.. "mad?"... she said.... never mind... dont talk about that thing anymore.. she changed the topic... she asked me, u got FB rite? ... she said also have FB account... then i searched for it... ahahaha... jadik stalker kejap.. then... i wonder... did she found my FB page? i asked her... she said she dont know my FB.... i bit relief there! hi hi hi.. lastly i add her.. actually... during we text, the feeling suddenly pop out.. even a bit, but i can feel it.. the feeling where the person who i was loved before.. i repeat the word.. WAS.. it is not the same when we text with other person... emmmm.... i dont know... i am over her.. i am .. YES I AM... kalau ada jodoh... nanti jumpa... kawin la... hi hi hi.. kalau tak..... tak la.. kawin dengan orang lain.. hahaaa... ops! suddenly.. i am getting emotionally cuz of this thing.... ok.. enough... enough...
my dear blog..
there is a page in FB that is really understand me.... konon.. click here.. ... "I don't think of you as a crush anymore, more like a bad habit I can't get rid of." well.. this is my problem for this few weeks.. a few month back.. i was DEEPLY in love with my crush.. i used to think about that person a lot... but now... it became one of my habit.... just like my teacher once said... it takes 14 days to develop habit.. now.... that person is my bad habit... Oh My God.......... i dont know... bad habit.... bad habit.. bad habit.. no more crush.... but.... i am thnkfull... no more crush... no more emotional life.. ahaha.... i felt soo relief.. i realise.. this holiday makes me forget of that person.. & it is great! my life is coming to normal back! yeay!!!!
my dear blog.... there's a lot more thing i wanna type here... but i gotta go now.. it's late already.. i havent pack my stuff... but... there will be a matched for fifa at 2 am... hu hu hu.. while waiting... i can pack my stuff...
~my chaotic life >> will start soon~~ i need to do my best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 yeahhh!!! (semangat gilerszzz)
just as usual. (english tunggang langgang)
actually. the title is only for one of my story.. i got a few story for tonite.. Tomorrow , i will go to Kuching.. i guess... my 2nd semester holiday will be ended very very soon.. next saturday... I will check in at unimas residential college.. emm.. just as usual... i just dont really like my holiday to be ended.. i cant be lazy 24/7 anymore.. my teacher once said to me.. behavior of human can be developed within 14 days.. for example.. sleeping time.. if we get use to sleep at 1200 am for 14 days.. after that, our body will automatically want to sleep at 1200 am... HENCE.. i use to sleep at 3 am.. 2 am during this holiday... as a result.. i will have problem to sleep early when i am in unimas.. adehh!! what can i do....
after this.. no more tv... lots of great tv series i will miss after this.... emmm... never mind.. i dont get any payment for those tv series anyway.. hi hi hi.. apart from that... i am excited to go back to kuching.. to live a chaotic life... life that full of laughter, sad, tiring etc/////
my dear blog,
just now... i text my ex.. i just curious to know she is accepted at what university.. she said USM... well .. that's cool.. USM is one of the great university in Malaysia... then.. i was shocked.. she thanks me.. she said.. thank you for still reminding her.. seriously i was shocked... actually i never forget her.. but.. not in the way of love anymore.. i know i am over her already.. (i guess).. i admit, i still have feeling towards her.. but... i guess it is only for 5% more.... not much.... u tell me.. couple for 3 years plus.. who can over that.. me? yup!! ehehee.... i asked her.. she said... she was afraid that i was mad at her.. then i asked her again.. "mad?"... she said.... never mind... dont talk about that thing anymore.. she changed the topic... she asked me, u got FB rite? ... she said also have FB account... then i searched for it... ahahaha... jadik stalker kejap.. then... i wonder... did she found my FB page? i asked her... she said she dont know my FB.... i bit relief there! hi hi hi.. lastly i add her.. actually... during we text, the feeling suddenly pop out.. even a bit, but i can feel it.. the feeling where the person who i was loved before.. i repeat the word.. WAS.. it is not the same when we text with other person... emmmm.... i dont know... i am over her.. i am .. YES I AM... kalau ada jodoh... nanti jumpa... kawin la... hi hi hi.. kalau tak..... tak la.. kawin dengan orang lain.. hahaaa... ops! suddenly.. i am getting emotionally cuz of this thing.... ok.. enough... enough...
my dear blog..
there is a page in FB that is really understand me.... konon.. click here.. ... "I don't think of you as a crush anymore, more like a bad habit I can't get rid of." well.. this is my problem for this few weeks.. a few month back.. i was DEEPLY in love with my crush.. i used to think about that person a lot... but now... it became one of my habit.... just like my teacher once said... it takes 14 days to develop habit.. now.... that person is my bad habit... Oh My God.......... i dont know... bad habit.... bad habit.. bad habit.. no more crush.... but.... i am thnkfull... no more crush... no more emotional life.. ahaha.... i felt soo relief.. i realise.. this holiday makes me forget of that person.. & it is great! my life is coming to normal back! yeay!!!!
my dear blog.... there's a lot more thing i wanna type here... but i gotta go now.. it's late already.. i havent pack my stuff... but... there will be a matched for fifa at 2 am... hu hu hu.. while waiting... i can pack my stuff...
~my chaotic life >> will start soon~~ i need to do my best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 yeahhh!!! (semangat gilerszzz)
just as usual. (english tunggang langgang)
Thursday, June 17, 2010
home sweet home
My dear blog..
today is thursday.. i still spending my nite at my home.. but, next thursday, i will not sitting on this couch anymore.. i will be at kuching.. i just have 7 more days to spend my holiday at my home.. but.. i have to minus 3 days.. i will go to Miri tomorrow & will be back on sunday..
a place called home.. home? .. maybe most of people will know what is a place called home.. ~home~ a place where we feel "home".. the feeling where we EXTREMELY get used to every single part of that house.. the feeling where we are 24/7 .. 365.. accepted.. invited in.. sometimes.. others' home 'looks' great.. but, still.. it 'feels' great at our home.. home sweet home... a popular phrase.. & it's true..
my home... a place where i missing at when i back at unimas...
the place where i grow up..
the place where i can hear the laughter of my parents.. my brothers.. my sisters..
the place where sometimes i can see the rivalry among family..
the place where i learned to talk, crawl, walk...
the place that witness some part of my life..
my home... a place like no other..
today is thursday.. i still spending my nite at my home.. but, next thursday, i will not sitting on this couch anymore.. i will be at kuching.. i just have 7 more days to spend my holiday at my home.. but.. i have to minus 3 days.. i will go to Miri tomorrow & will be back on sunday..
a place called home.. home? .. maybe most of people will know what is a place called home.. ~home~ a place where we feel "home".. the feeling where we EXTREMELY get used to every single part of that house.. the feeling where we are 24/7 .. 365.. accepted.. invited in.. sometimes.. others' home 'looks' great.. but, still.. it 'feels' great at our home.. home sweet home... a popular phrase.. & it's true..
my home... a place where i missing at when i back at unimas...
the place where i grow up..
the place where i can hear the laughter of my parents.. my brothers.. my sisters..
the place where sometimes i can see the rivalry among family..
the place where i learned to talk, crawl, walk...
the place that witness some part of my life..
my home... a place like no other..
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Football Player Dream
My dear blog....
(lama dah nk buat mcm ni, baru feeling sikit nak luahan rasa macam dalam diary.. hehe)
Impian..
Semakin lama hidup di dunia ni.. Semakin bertambah maju dunia ni.. Impian jadi sesuatu yang orang galakkan untuk kejar... Impian dikatakan bukan satu yang salah.. Dalam movies.. tv series.. semakin banyak yang berkisar tentang impian yang manusia kejar.. Seperti manusia lain.. aku jugak ada impian.. Aku ada banyak impian.. kebanyakan impian aku macam dah nak jadi angan2 je.. satu impian yang semakin lama semakin mustahil adalah nak jadi Football player.. rasanya.. aku start bermimpi nak jadi pemain bola sepak dari kecik lagi.. tak ingat pulak umor brapa.. Zaman-zaman tadika & zaman sekolah rendah.. aku ada main bola sepak.. main atas jalan yang belum berturap.. aku la yang sediakan bola.. tiang gol kami letak 2 slipar .. sejak aku tengok bola sepak jadi semakin serius.. that is di sekolah rendah.. aku tengok senior2 main kat padang sekolah.. aku jadi "jauh" dari bola sepak.. sebab.. kalau masuk padang je, nak main, jadi kekok pulak.. sebab tak kenal sangat orang yang main.. then.. senior yang main tu pulak mostly yang samseng2.. tak masuk kepala sangat.. semakin lama semakin jauh aku dari bola sepak.. tambahan pulak.. aku macam tak ada bakat je dalam sukan.. PATHETIC TO BE ME.. walau pun kat sekolah aku tak main.. aku main jugak dengan jiran2,.. mcm slalu.. main sikit2 je.. time PJ pun aku main.. lepas UPSR.. cuti hujung tahun untuk masuk tingkatan 1 saangat panjang.. aku jarang mengacau kawan2 aku.. yang aku buat, makan.. tido.. makan.. tido.. aku memang kaki TV dari kecik.. aku boleh hidup berbulan-bulan dengan TV..(konon).. sejak dari situ.. aku macam dah stop dengan bola sepak..
Masuk pulak tingkatan 1 (skolah asarama penuh).. kalau time PJK.. kalau aku tak silap.. cikgu suruh budak lelaki main bila sepak.. aku macam.. can i do this??????????? aku pun main je la.. ternyata aku dah KEKOK main.. REAL SUCKS!! MEMALUKAN!! ye la.. lelaki suppose to play soccer... aku mcm dah tak berani nak main bola sepak start dari hari tu.. MEMALUKAN.. tapi.. sebab dah semakin rapat dengan kawan sekelas.. start dari tingkatan 2.. atau 3..(tak ingat).. aku dah kurang kekok main bola sepak.. tapi.. HANYA bermain dengan kawan sekelas.. kalau ada orang lain.. start la aku kekok.. time PJK la time aku main boal sepak dengan enjoy.. tapi.. bukan tiap kali PJK pun main bola sepak.. PJK pulak sekali seminggu.. so.. aku jaarang sangat main.. kalau petang2.. aku malu nk main.. ntah.. mostly orng yang main petang2 tu tak sama kepala sangat.. diorang is real expert.. aku??? saaangat la tak pandai.. pandai sikit2.. sebab jarang sangat main.. *********kenapa la hidup aku saangat mustahil untuk sebati dengan bermain bola sepak*************** ... sebab2 aku tak main bola sepak sangat adalah KEKOK.. MALU.. the worst part is.. tak pandai sangat macam orang lain, cuz jarang main.. kalau sekolah menengah dulu.. kalau aku tengok wakil sekolah berlatih.. aku mesti MAKAN HATI.. kalau tengok orang2 main bola sepak petang2... mesti MAKAN HATI BERULAM JANTUNG BERKUAHKAN DARAH B+ .. aku sedih tengok diri aku yang tak sehebat diorang.. tapi.. aku slalu pujuk diri aku.. "at least aku pandai main sikit drpd kaki bangku terus......" sooo pathetic.. cuti lepas SPM pun agak panjang.. lagi la .. tak main bola sepak langusung... T.T .... adoohhhhh...
masuk matriks.. aku langsung tak main.. sebab KOMPEM KEKOK!! aaarrgghh.. y am i like this... then.. aku pun tengok wakil matrix blatih kat padang.. i wish i was them.. hurmmmmm.. **sigh***... aku pun slalu tengok orang yang main petang2... again.. **i wish i was them.. (sigh)..** aku pn start pujuk hati aku macam2..... (sigh).....
how i wish i am a football player.............
aku download la video ni... Lampard crita pasal kisah bola sepak dia.. bestnya!!! aku tertengok video ni kat tv... then aku download.. now.. i upload it balik.. bestnyaaa... dia cakap..
when i was a kid i loved the fact
that my dad was a football player..
He used to train me in the garden at home..
It's very difficult to become a player at the top level..
He taught me I had to work very hard to get there..
He taught to come back fighting..
What ever life throws in my way..
So the minute you walk out..
and you realise you're representing your country..
it's the most special feeling you can have.
***sob**sob**sob** untung nya dia........... i wish i can go to the past for a few days to tell myself to play soccer no matter what happen....... but... maybe this is TAKDIR.. it is meant to be.. never mind.. i just need to thankful for what ever i had rite now.. cuz we dont know when our death is..
awal aku di unimas,,,,, ni gambar aku jadi urusetia pertandingan futsal...
aku jadi urusetia sebab aku HAMPIR jadi jawatankuasa perwakilan kolej (JPK).. last last aku tolak jawatan tu atas sebab2 yang aku macam tak nak taip kat sini takut menghina beberapa pihak.. & aku pun ok je kalau tak dapat jd JPK... (terkeluar topik)!!
last but not least... sekarang ni musim FIFA.. aku tengah tunggu england main pukul 2.30 nanti.... banyak star main dalam england tu... hu hu hu..
anyway... to myself..... about this "soccer thing" .. i dont know what will happen to you.. cuz... i still lack of skill... lack of strength.. lack of almost everything that you need to play soccer.... anyway... stop complaining on this thing... u got so many other things to worry about.. ok??!!! Love ur self... XOXO..!!!! (xoxo pulak.. adeehhh)/...
(lama dah nk buat mcm ni, baru feeling sikit nak luahan rasa macam dalam diary.. hehe)
Impian..
Semakin lama hidup di dunia ni.. Semakin bertambah maju dunia ni.. Impian jadi sesuatu yang orang galakkan untuk kejar... Impian dikatakan bukan satu yang salah.. Dalam movies.. tv series.. semakin banyak yang berkisar tentang impian yang manusia kejar.. Seperti manusia lain.. aku jugak ada impian.. Aku ada banyak impian.. kebanyakan impian aku macam dah nak jadi angan2 je.. satu impian yang semakin lama semakin mustahil adalah nak jadi Football player.. rasanya.. aku start bermimpi nak jadi pemain bola sepak dari kecik lagi.. tak ingat pulak umor brapa.. Zaman-zaman tadika & zaman sekolah rendah.. aku ada main bola sepak.. main atas jalan yang belum berturap.. aku la yang sediakan bola.. tiang gol kami letak 2 slipar .. sejak aku tengok bola sepak jadi semakin serius.. that is di sekolah rendah.. aku tengok senior2 main kat padang sekolah.. aku jadi "jauh" dari bola sepak.. sebab.. kalau masuk padang je, nak main, jadi kekok pulak.. sebab tak kenal sangat orang yang main.. then.. senior yang main tu pulak mostly yang samseng2.. tak masuk kepala sangat.. semakin lama semakin jauh aku dari bola sepak.. tambahan pulak.. aku macam tak ada bakat je dalam sukan.. PATHETIC TO BE ME.. walau pun kat sekolah aku tak main.. aku main jugak dengan jiran2,.. mcm slalu.. main sikit2 je.. time PJ pun aku main.. lepas UPSR.. cuti hujung tahun untuk masuk tingkatan 1 saangat panjang.. aku jarang mengacau kawan2 aku.. yang aku buat, makan.. tido.. makan.. tido.. aku memang kaki TV dari kecik.. aku boleh hidup berbulan-bulan dengan TV..(konon).. sejak dari situ.. aku macam dah stop dengan bola sepak..
Masuk pulak tingkatan 1 (skolah asarama penuh).. kalau time PJK.. kalau aku tak silap.. cikgu suruh budak lelaki main bila sepak.. aku macam.. can i do this??????????? aku pun main je la.. ternyata aku dah KEKOK main.. REAL SUCKS!! MEMALUKAN!! ye la.. lelaki suppose to play soccer... aku mcm dah tak berani nak main bola sepak start dari hari tu.. MEMALUKAN.. tapi.. sebab dah semakin rapat dengan kawan sekelas.. start dari tingkatan 2.. atau 3..(tak ingat).. aku dah kurang kekok main bola sepak.. tapi.. HANYA bermain dengan kawan sekelas.. kalau ada orang lain.. start la aku kekok.. time PJK la time aku main boal sepak dengan enjoy.. tapi.. bukan tiap kali PJK pun main bola sepak.. PJK pulak sekali seminggu.. so.. aku jaarang sangat main.. kalau petang2.. aku malu nk main.. ntah.. mostly orng yang main petang2 tu tak sama kepala sangat.. diorang is real expert.. aku??? saaangat la tak pandai.. pandai sikit2.. sebab jarang sangat main.. *********kenapa la hidup aku saangat mustahil untuk sebati dengan bermain bola sepak*************** ... sebab2 aku tak main bola sepak sangat adalah KEKOK.. MALU.. the worst part is.. tak pandai sangat macam orang lain, cuz jarang main.. kalau sekolah menengah dulu.. kalau aku tengok wakil sekolah berlatih.. aku mesti MAKAN HATI.. kalau tengok orang2 main bola sepak petang2... mesti MAKAN HATI BERULAM JANTUNG BERKUAHKAN DARAH B+ .. aku sedih tengok diri aku yang tak sehebat diorang.. tapi.. aku slalu pujuk diri aku.. "at least aku pandai main sikit drpd kaki bangku terus......" sooo pathetic.. cuti lepas SPM pun agak panjang.. lagi la .. tak main bola sepak langusung... T.T .... adoohhhhh...
masuk matriks.. aku langsung tak main.. sebab KOMPEM KEKOK!! aaarrgghh.. y am i like this... then.. aku pun tengok wakil matrix blatih kat padang.. i wish i was them.. hurmmmmm.. **sigh***... aku pun slalu tengok orang yang main petang2... again.. **i wish i was them.. (sigh)..** aku pn start pujuk hati aku macam2..... (sigh).....
how i wish i am a football player.............
aku download la video ni... Lampard crita pasal kisah bola sepak dia.. bestnya!!! aku tertengok video ni kat tv... then aku download.. now.. i upload it balik.. bestnyaaa... dia cakap..
when i was a kid i loved the fact
that my dad was a football player..
He used to train me in the garden at home..
It's very difficult to become a player at the top level..
He taught me I had to work very hard to get there..
He taught to come back fighting..
What ever life throws in my way..
So the minute you walk out..
and you realise you're representing your country..
it's the most special feeling you can have.
***sob**sob**sob** untung nya dia........... i wish i can go to the past for a few days to tell myself to play soccer no matter what happen....... but... maybe this is TAKDIR.. it is meant to be.. never mind.. i just need to thankful for what ever i had rite now.. cuz we dont know when our death is..
awal aku di unimas,,,,, ni gambar aku jadi urusetia pertandingan futsal...
aku jadi urusetia sebab aku HAMPIR jadi jawatankuasa perwakilan kolej (JPK).. last last aku tolak jawatan tu atas sebab2 yang aku macam tak nak taip kat sini takut menghina beberapa pihak.. & aku pun ok je kalau tak dapat jd JPK... (terkeluar topik)!!last but not least... sekarang ni musim FIFA.. aku tengah tunggu england main pukul 2.30 nanti.... banyak star main dalam england tu... hu hu hu..
anyway... to myself..... about this "soccer thing" .. i dont know what will happen to you.. cuz... i still lack of skill... lack of strength.. lack of almost everything that you need to play soccer.... anyway... stop complaining on this thing... u got so many other things to worry about.. ok??!!! Love ur self... XOXO..!!!! (xoxo pulak.. adeehhh)/...
Thursday, June 10, 2010
offer jadi model.........
last monday... 7th June 2010... something that i always joking at, became 'almost' reality.. that day was a regular day for me.. just like what i always do, i checked my twitter, blog, myspace, & facebook.. & then... when i open my Myspace, i saw one notification... which was 1 unread message..
he said
>>hi
apa khabar
kat ner tu
salam dari urs glamour
i replied
>>hye.......
khabar baik !!
sl dr urs glamor?????
he replied
>>kat ner tu
keje ke study
stay mana
i kat kl, keje kat agensi model ni
i replied
>>kat sarawak .....
study kat universiti malaysia sarawak...
wow!!! hebat!! keje kt agensi model......
he replied
>>ambil bidang pe tu
biasa je lah, tak hebat pun
huhuhu
i replied
>>ambik degree bioteknologi..... biase2 je...
hebat la tu... agensi model... bukan main2...
he replied
>>nanti bolelah u try lak jadi model i
i replied
>>woow!!!! betul ke??? mcm mimpi je ade org ckp mcm ni......... siyesss!!
he replied
>>nanti dah turun kl dtglh jumpa i
after that.... i cant stop smiling.. I always joking with my friends that i am a model... but.... oh!! Ma !! God!! i got an offer!!! even it is not an offer secara rasmi.. tapi.... the thing is "AKU DI OFFER" .. ada jugak orang yang nak offer aku.. DAMN!! this is a history in ma life! i checked whether he is true... i checked his profile in myspace.. some kind of true.. here are some of the pic in his photo album..
then... i guess.. he is for real.. but... i never thought before about this modeling thing.. deep inside my heart... i really2 want to be a model.. but then.. i dont take this offer seriously.. never mind.. when i am meant to be a model.. or celebrity.. i will be.. hehe.... (i always watch E! News & the 10 in astro channel 712... i hope i am one of the celebrity in the news.. just like zac efron.. justin bieber.. all the glamour band... or .. just like the legend.. michael jackson.. lots of girl screaming at them.. what they wearing.. where they go.. everyone wanted to know)
ahhaaahaha.... i always wanted to be a celebrity.. but.. looking at Malaysia's celebrity.. OH NO!! tooo different from hollywood celebrity... (sorry .. no offense to those celebrity)...
then..... to me... the message about offering to me to be a model is just a message.. not more.. not less.. just a message.. it makes me smile & proud of me.. at least.. untuk sekali dalam aku.. aku kena offer jadi model.. itu pun dah cukup bermakna... saaangat bermakna... ianya seperti mimpi aku 'hampir' jadi reality.. hahaha.. 'hampir' jadi realiti pun dah saangat cukup.. Alhamdulillah...
jeng.. jeng.. tiba2.. KALAU LA AKU JADI MODEL... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!! ahahaa... enough!! enough!! >>>>senyum sampai telinga<<<<
teringat pulak kat gambar poster & banner yang aku edit utk dihantar kat lecturer time kat matrix dulu.. untuk kelas sains infomatik.. sume model tu aku guna gambar sendiri.. ahahaa.... lucu laa... dari sini la ilmu mengedit gambar mula masok dalam kepala hotak aku...
he said
>>hi
apa khabar
kat ner tu
salam dari urs glamour
i replied
>>hye.......
khabar baik !!
sl dr urs glamor?????
he replied
>>kat ner tu
keje ke study
stay mana
i kat kl, keje kat agensi model ni
i replied
>>kat sarawak .....
study kat universiti malaysia sarawak...
wow!!! hebat!! keje kt agensi model......
he replied
>>ambil bidang pe tu
biasa je lah, tak hebat pun
huhuhu
i replied
>>ambik degree bioteknologi..... biase2 je...
hebat la tu... agensi model... bukan main2...
he replied
>>nanti bolelah u try lak jadi model i
i replied
>>woow!!!! betul ke??? mcm mimpi je ade org ckp mcm ni......... siyesss!!
he replied
>>nanti dah turun kl dtglh jumpa i
after that.... i cant stop smiling.. I always joking with my friends that i am a model... but.... oh!! Ma !! God!! i got an offer!!! even it is not an offer secara rasmi.. tapi.... the thing is "AKU DI OFFER" .. ada jugak orang yang nak offer aku.. DAMN!! this is a history in ma life! i checked whether he is true... i checked his profile in myspace.. some kind of true.. here are some of the pic in his photo album..
then... i guess.. he is for real.. but... i never thought before about this modeling thing.. deep inside my heart... i really2 want to be a model.. but then.. i dont take this offer seriously.. never mind.. when i am meant to be a model.. or celebrity.. i will be.. hehe.... (i always watch E! News & the 10 in astro channel 712... i hope i am one of the celebrity in the news.. just like zac efron.. justin bieber.. all the glamour band... or .. just like the legend.. michael jackson.. lots of girl screaming at them.. what they wearing.. where they go.. everyone wanted to know)
ahhaaahaha.... i always wanted to be a celebrity.. but.. looking at Malaysia's celebrity.. OH NO!! tooo different from hollywood celebrity... (sorry .. no offense to those celebrity)...
then..... to me... the message about offering to me to be a model is just a message.. not more.. not less.. just a message.. it makes me smile & proud of me.. at least.. untuk sekali dalam aku.. aku kena offer jadi model.. itu pun dah cukup bermakna... saaangat bermakna... ianya seperti mimpi aku 'hampir' jadi reality.. hahaha.. 'hampir' jadi realiti pun dah saangat cukup.. Alhamdulillah...
jeng.. jeng.. tiba2.. KALAU LA AKU JADI MODEL... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!! ahahaa... enough!! enough!! >>>>senyum sampai telinga<<<<
teringat pulak kat gambar poster & banner yang aku edit utk dihantar kat lecturer time kat matrix dulu.. untuk kelas sains infomatik.. sume model tu aku guna gambar sendiri.. ahahaa.... lucu laa... dari sini la ilmu mengedit gambar mula masok dalam kepala hotak aku...
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
Privacy Dilemma
for the past few days.. i kept thinking.. i wanna write most of my feeling expression in this blog.. but.. some of the story related to some people who might read this blog.. i dont know.. i think.. i was too naive to expose my blog to others.. now... i want to change this blog's address.. but... i dont know... on the other hand.. i really appreciate my followers.. & i also appreciate for some people who read my story even they dont follow.... hrrmmmmm.... those who willing to follow & read my blog are too precious.. but.... i am afraid my blog readers are not just them... i am afraid that there are more....... i know we can set privacy setting... but.. i dont wanna do it.. i like it simple.. no need to set any privacy....
emmmmmmmmmm...... what to do....????? never mind.... i am mature enough to think.. i just need time to think....
emmmmmmmmmm...... what to do....????? never mind.... i am mature enough to think.. i just need time to think....
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